Friday, August 10, 2007

And so it goes...

Up & down. That's the way the last two weeks have gone. It's hard for me to believe that it's been 2 weeks - we went to a 3:30 ultrasound on July 27th and our lives turned upside-down.

Today, for some reason, everything is getting to me. Nicole Richie is totally bumming me out. I mean, granted, it's Nicole Richie and on some level, she bums pretty much everyone out. But she's particularly getting to me at the moment with her 18-week old baby bump.

A couple of days ago I was laughing about an old post that freaked my dad out. He sent me an email that said "Wow, that was a loooooooong story!" and then told me that he couldn't believe all the things I was willing to tell the whole world. Truth be told, it's actually easier for me to say something here than face-to-face. So anyway, while I was preparing for a follow-up visit with my midwife, and planning to talk to her about ovulation. I thought "I should blog about ovulation just to freak my dad out again!" So here I am, saying the O word - O-V-U-L-A-T-I-O-N. Dad, are you breaking a sweat?

So, we talked ovulation - which should happen in the next 4 weeks. In 2 months, I can try to get pregnant again. Sometimes I think that's what I want to do, and sometimes the idea completely terrifies me. I think we'll just have to see where we're at in 2 months.

For now, I am finally sleeping, thanks to Ambien. And I'm praying again, due in large part to Daedra. So I'm getting there...but it does seem to be a step backwards for every 3 or 4 forward.


daedra said...

just like any new thing it will be hard to adjust. your comment about one step forward and 3-4 back made me think about pushing a baby out(now I'll make your dad uncomfortable). For every two steps forward there's one step back, that's why it takes so long.
I'll be praying for your ovulation and a stree-free conception because as I'm learning it doesn't happen if you worry about a bunch of stuff.