Tuesday, July 29, 2008

One year

I've spent the last week trying to figure out what to say today. I've come to the conclusion that I don't have anything in me at the moment, but I do want to acknowledge today.

One year ago today, my life turned upside-down. Since then, I feel stronger in a lot of ways, weaker in almost as many, and I have to admit, I'm very different from the person I was. I think all 3 of us are - Josh still has no idea what happened but the emotion in the house has scarred him too. We all wear the scars of the last year, and while they have faded and are not so red & angry, they're still there, and definitely not disappearing.

So we survived - despite ourselves. And with 5 weeks until this next baby is born I'm feeling hope. That's a very nice change.

6 comments:

daedra said...

My thoughts and prayers are with you today.

Mighty Morphin' Mama said...

Just want you to know that I am thinking of you today, Isabel's birthday. May God's arms wrap tightly around you and comfort you.

Lolo said...

Through it all, I'm glad that you've come to this point, where you can feel hope for the future. Thinking of you guys...

Rachael said...

(Hugs) to all of you.

Aunt Becky said...

Thinking of you and Isabel on her birthday.

Jos said...

Was thinking of you today-- I am glad you posted. Hugs and prayers are yours from me--